this weekend was nice. It always seems to go by so fast, especially when I know I have to head back to NYC. The week before last, I went on 4 castings. I booked 3! Unbelievable! I got the call on Friday, that I'd book the 3rd gig. I was headed home on the bus so I couldn't quite jump up and do my celebration dance. But GOD got the glory. HE just keeps moving in my life, continuing to guide me, give me strength, and be my salvation. He weeds out all the nonsense, keeps me focused and grounded and moving onward.
Even though REST is often on my mind for the weekends, it seems to rarely happen. I had every intention on going to my niece's track meet but when I found out it started at 7am ... ummmm that was a negative. My mind wasn't having it. It already made the decision that we probably wouldn't make it. Rest was on the agenda!
I did go over Friday afternoon and played with her, my oldest niece and my youngest nephew for a little bit. I got a little hopscotch, bike riding and jumping like a rabbit in. LOL. Saturday....what the heck did I do Saturday? WOW. See how fast the weekend goes. It's a total blur. I remember taking care of some paperwork and running some errands, but the morning ... oh I went to the gym! I also attended a day party for a friend fighting breast cancer. It was really nice an she looks really good. A good crowd came out to support and I got to catch up with many people I hadn't seen in a while, including one of my best girlfriends.
Sunday, me and my family headed to the nursing home where my uncle resides to attend a celebration for his 60th birthday. Every time I visit there, it does something to me. Seeing some of the elderly there and how they seem sad and alone, makes me feel so bad. Of course, I'm not sure how they feel, what their lives were like, or what their ailment is, but I've heard so many negative things about nursing homes, that I automatically feel saddened.
A simple "hello" lights them up. I ran into a woman in a wheelchair, which by the way, everyone is in one. She was sitting in the hallway near the restrooms. I said hello to her, asked her if anyone was inside and she said no, you can go. I struggled to open the door but with her direction, it popped right open. When I finished, she was still sitting there, as if she was guarding the door, or waiting for me to come out. I asked her how she was doing and complimented me her on the throw she had her across her. She was a little frail white lady with teeth that looked as old as her, but she was cute and nice. She asked me where I was going looking so pretty. I chuckled. "I'm here celebrating my uncle's birthday", I said. With excitement, she exclaimed, "oh how nice." We chatted for a few minutes and then I had to go. We were wrapping up the celebration and were about to head out.
I saw cousins and uncles I hadn't seen in years. We shared stories, laughs and love. Makes me hope that the others that reside in that home are able to share days like that with their families. That they weren't just dropped off and left to die alone. Being there always does something to me. But it makes me realize how fortunate my family is. That we have a bond that even if we don't talk or see each other for years, we can pick right up where we left off. No love lost. Everyone seems to be doing pretty well, health wise. And that's rich!
I'm on the bus now, headed up. An early day approaches me. Only 2 trains tomorrow but a long day. A 10 hour day is scheduled and tonight I need to really push myself to get to bed early and to SLEEP!!! We'll see how it pans out.
Until then ... GO GET IT!!!!
Monday, May 24, 2010
Thursday, May 20, 2010
YAWWWWN ... AHHHHHH!
340AM!! That's the time I got up this morning. My call time for my shoot today was 6am! Yesterday was a breeze! 1230p call time. Make up artist started me immediately and then it was time for lunch. WORD? And it was the bomb too ... and healthy. After lunch, got my make up retouched, goT on set and knocked it out in 30 minutes. A 5 minute break for the photographer, client and producer to look at the images turned into, 'Monique, you're DONE!!!! Say Whaaaaaaaat? Sweeeeet! Two hours and I was out!!!
Instead of messing around in the city, I decided to head back to BK to just chill out. I knew I'd have to get to bed early so I could get my butt up to catch the train at 430 in the a.m. So I did some work on my laptop, ate dinner, watched the tube for a bit and drank two cups of sleepy time tea to help me into LA LA land. I was trying to get to bed by 8am. But 8am turned into 930am into too late to get a good nights sleep. : (
My aunt was watching a recap episode of America's Next Top Model and I got caught up. I saw some of the earlier episodes of this season but I don't quite keep up with the show like I used to when it first aired.
So I FINALLY hit the futon full of sleepy herbal goodness and I COULD NOT GET TO SLEEP! It's something about having to get up so early that your mind is on some kind of overload ... or something. My mind and heart were racing. WTH? Can I please just get 5 hours of sleep. I drank so much tea and water before I went to bed, I kept getting up to use the bathroom, the negroes outside were hooping and hollering about nothing, and in the apartment building you can hear every door open and close, every squeak and conversation. Babies crying, kids running across the floor ... so I decided to get my ipod. Maybe so silky tunes would help tune out the noise outside and in my head.
Thirty-two minutes in and I had use the bathroom again it was over for the tunes. I found myself singing along with the dang on songs. Not focusing on sleep at all.
The pillow I have with my bedtime ensemble (2 flat sheets, a comforter and a pillow covered in a satin pillow case) is sort of too fluffy. I like to sleep on a flatter pillow or no pillow at all. When I was going to the chiropractor, the doctor suggested that a bigger pillow could cause back issues because your body isn't' laying evenly. So laying that way can create pressure on your neck and back.
So opted to sleep without it. Maybe that was the issue because as soon as I made the decision to give the pillow another chance, I was off to sleep. But not for long, because as soon as I knew it my alarm on my phone was vibrating and I was BLOWN. Time to get up already?!
I guess my brain needed something soft and cushiony to calm whatever was going on in my head. I'll know better next time. And of course, I'll be knocked out tonight for the lack of sleep I got last night. Oh well...such is life. I'm working and it if that means losing a little sleep then so be it. A friend once told me 'you can sleep when you're dead!' LOL. That maybe true, but I'd like to get some while I'm still breathing so I'm not going to shoots and auditions looking like a zombie. : ) But hey, I get. But I needs my beauty sleep. Hehehe.
Off to the trains. I had 3 to take today. The 2 from Flatbush to Atlantic Ave, the Q from Atlantic to 14th St/Union Square and then the L from Union Square to 1st Avenue. Now you see why I had to get up so early. My commute would take about an hour. Less if the trains were running a little faster. It seemed like every train took forever to come. And that early in the morning, time goes extremely slow.
The shoot was in the East Village. We shot at a little Cafe called Cafe OST. They provided a mobile trailer for us to eat breakfast, get into wardrobe and hold us until it was time to shoot. This shoot was for a product for patients with MS. It hits close to home for me because one of my best friends was diagnosed 10 years ago.
There was 3 of us on set. Two really cool young ladies. Shikira from Jamaica who's part Jamaican and part Chinese and Sara who's Persian and was also on Season 2 of America's Next Top Model. We all seemed to really click. But this shoot was a little special as the stars were two other young ladies who actually have MS. Elizabeth from Connecticut and Missy from Alabama. I especially connected with Elizabeth and was able to talk to her about her experience with the disease and share my own personal story about my friend who shares the disease.
We wrapped at 10am. Another short day! So Shikara, who I really connected with as well, and I decided to go grab a more healthier bite at a little cute place 2 blocks from the shoot location. The breakfast they provided was kind of greasy. There was a really good fruit cup but I didn't eat well. We would have loved if Sara joined us but she rolled out. She didnt even say bye. DANG Sara! Guess she somewher to be. I did happen to get a little scoop on her experience with the show and that Ms. Tyra Banks. SMH. I ain't one to gossip so you won't hear it from me.
On our way to eat, I email all my agencies to update them that I'm done with my booking and if they have any castings they want to send me on...I'm available. Still gotta grind. I get one hit for the day and head there after I fill my stomach with a tasty bacon, spinach and egg white sandwich and a waffle with whip and strawberries I share with my new buddy. DE-LISH!
It was so nice today. After a few days of clouds, rain and wind it was refreshing to see and feel the sun. But I was TI-YERD! I decided to head back to BK and lay it down. I attempted to get an appointment to get my hair trimmed but the stylist I wanted to get an appointment with couldn't provide the service I needed so it was back to the crib. Once I got back there, I remembered my aunt was going to get her hair done so I texted her to see if I could get in to see her stylist.
She checked her stylist's availability and I had an appointment. Siced, because she did such a great job. And she 2 blocks from the house. IDEAL. I am extremely picky about who cuts my hair. As long as someone can cut it, I can style it.
I had a casting for tomorrow but because it shoots on a day I'm already booked, I had to turn it down so its back home on the early bus! My aunt is coming down as well. The lady I call my aunt is actually my sisters mother-in-the-law but its so much easier to call her my aunt. Sooo gotta go pack up cause its another early morning rising for me ... I'm sure to be sleep on the bus. Im looking forward to this weekend too. No work! And the weather is going to be really nice.
I'll be attending an event on behalf of a friend who was diagnosed with breast cancer, attending my oldest niece's track meet, probably cleaning the house, getting some rest, taking care of a few important administrative things and looking forward to a productive week next week. OH and tomorrow is my sister and mother's birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY FAMILY! Love Yoouuuu. So they'll be a couple more things going on. My uncle's birthday is also this weekend so I believe we'll be heading up to the nursing home to have a little celebration with him. : ) Niiiice.
Until next time .... GO GET IT!!!
Instead of messing around in the city, I decided to head back to BK to just chill out. I knew I'd have to get to bed early so I could get my butt up to catch the train at 430 in the a.m. So I did some work on my laptop, ate dinner, watched the tube for a bit and drank two cups of sleepy time tea to help me into LA LA land. I was trying to get to bed by 8am. But 8am turned into 930am into too late to get a good nights sleep. : (
My aunt was watching a recap episode of America's Next Top Model and I got caught up. I saw some of the earlier episodes of this season but I don't quite keep up with the show like I used to when it first aired.
So I FINALLY hit the futon full of sleepy herbal goodness and I COULD NOT GET TO SLEEP! It's something about having to get up so early that your mind is on some kind of overload ... or something. My mind and heart were racing. WTH? Can I please just get 5 hours of sleep. I drank so much tea and water before I went to bed, I kept getting up to use the bathroom, the negroes outside were hooping and hollering about nothing, and in the apartment building you can hear every door open and close, every squeak and conversation. Babies crying, kids running across the floor ... so I decided to get my ipod. Maybe so silky tunes would help tune out the noise outside and in my head.
Thirty-two minutes in and I had use the bathroom again it was over for the tunes. I found myself singing along with the dang on songs. Not focusing on sleep at all.
The pillow I have with my bedtime ensemble (2 flat sheets, a comforter and a pillow covered in a satin pillow case) is sort of too fluffy. I like to sleep on a flatter pillow or no pillow at all. When I was going to the chiropractor, the doctor suggested that a bigger pillow could cause back issues because your body isn't' laying evenly. So laying that way can create pressure on your neck and back.
So opted to sleep without it. Maybe that was the issue because as soon as I made the decision to give the pillow another chance, I was off to sleep. But not for long, because as soon as I knew it my alarm on my phone was vibrating and I was BLOWN. Time to get up already?!
I guess my brain needed something soft and cushiony to calm whatever was going on in my head. I'll know better next time. And of course, I'll be knocked out tonight for the lack of sleep I got last night. Oh well...such is life. I'm working and it if that means losing a little sleep then so be it. A friend once told me 'you can sleep when you're dead!' LOL. That maybe true, but I'd like to get some while I'm still breathing so I'm not going to shoots and auditions looking like a zombie. : ) But hey, I get. But I needs my beauty sleep. Hehehe.
Off to the trains. I had 3 to take today. The 2 from Flatbush to Atlantic Ave, the Q from Atlantic to 14th St/Union Square and then the L from Union Square to 1st Avenue. Now you see why I had to get up so early. My commute would take about an hour. Less if the trains were running a little faster. It seemed like every train took forever to come. And that early in the morning, time goes extremely slow.
The shoot was in the East Village. We shot at a little Cafe called Cafe OST. They provided a mobile trailer for us to eat breakfast, get into wardrobe and hold us until it was time to shoot. This shoot was for a product for patients with MS. It hits close to home for me because one of my best friends was diagnosed 10 years ago.
There was 3 of us on set. Two really cool young ladies. Shikira from Jamaica who's part Jamaican and part Chinese and Sara who's Persian and was also on Season 2 of America's Next Top Model. We all seemed to really click. But this shoot was a little special as the stars were two other young ladies who actually have MS. Elizabeth from Connecticut and Missy from Alabama. I especially connected with Elizabeth and was able to talk to her about her experience with the disease and share my own personal story about my friend who shares the disease.
We wrapped at 10am. Another short day! So Shikara, who I really connected with as well, and I decided to go grab a more healthier bite at a little cute place 2 blocks from the shoot location. The breakfast they provided was kind of greasy. There was a really good fruit cup but I didn't eat well. We would have loved if Sara joined us but she rolled out. She didnt even say bye. DANG Sara! Guess she somewher to be. I did happen to get a little scoop on her experience with the show and that Ms. Tyra Banks. SMH. I ain't one to gossip so you won't hear it from me.
On our way to eat, I email all my agencies to update them that I'm done with my booking and if they have any castings they want to send me on...I'm available. Still gotta grind. I get one hit for the day and head there after I fill my stomach with a tasty bacon, spinach and egg white sandwich and a waffle with whip and strawberries I share with my new buddy. DE-LISH!
It was so nice today. After a few days of clouds, rain and wind it was refreshing to see and feel the sun. But I was TI-YERD! I decided to head back to BK and lay it down. I attempted to get an appointment to get my hair trimmed but the stylist I wanted to get an appointment with couldn't provide the service I needed so it was back to the crib. Once I got back there, I remembered my aunt was going to get her hair done so I texted her to see if I could get in to see her stylist.
She checked her stylist's availability and I had an appointment. Siced, because she did such a great job. And she 2 blocks from the house. IDEAL. I am extremely picky about who cuts my hair. As long as someone can cut it, I can style it.
I had a casting for tomorrow but because it shoots on a day I'm already booked, I had to turn it down so its back home on the early bus! My aunt is coming down as well. The lady I call my aunt is actually my sisters mother-in-the-law but its so much easier to call her my aunt. Sooo gotta go pack up cause its another early morning rising for me ... I'm sure to be sleep on the bus. Im looking forward to this weekend too. No work! And the weather is going to be really nice.
I'll be attending an event on behalf of a friend who was diagnosed with breast cancer, attending my oldest niece's track meet, probably cleaning the house, getting some rest, taking care of a few important administrative things and looking forward to a productive week next week. OH and tomorrow is my sister and mother's birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY FAMILY! Love Yoouuuu. So they'll be a couple more things going on. My uncle's birthday is also this weekend so I believe we'll be heading up to the nursing home to have a little celebration with him. : ) Niiiice.
Until next time .... GO GET IT!!!
Tuesday, May 18, 2010
Busy Busy ... Good GOD!
Well folks, its been just a little while since I last blogged. I started a draft last week and it was just all over the place, so I decided to wait until I felt more together about what I wanted or needed to say. I'm on the bus headed up top to stay in BK at my aunts this time. I just got finished eating a turkey pastrami sandwich with some honey BBQ chips. Courtesy of Chef Mo! ; ) Got me some trail mix, some chocolate chip oatmeal cookies and a bottled water. Which will probably all be gone before I even get to NYC. Terrible : / Just greedy! But if you've never rode the bus, its a MUST to bring snacks or you will be hungry then mug! Those not from the DC area, like a mug is something we say. I have no idea what it means really. Cause I mug does not get hungry. : / DC/Metro area Slang go figure. But it means you'd be really hungry tho. LOL. Moving on ...
I must say, the month of May has turned out to be quite busy. The promotional events have been in quantity and aside from the two jobs I turned down earlier in the month, I've booked 2 jobs shooting this week! They say it takes about 3 to 5 years to really start to see your business take off. Well if this any indication, I'm ready for the ride. I just hope I hit it before the 5 year mark ... but it's not my call. So let me just be quiet and be grateful.
GOD has truly been looking out as HE always does. Staying faithful, steadfast and consistent always brings about more than I ever expect. It can be overwhelming sometimes. Even surprising.
Yes, I am working but not necessarily booking the clients I would like. Trust me I'm not being picky. Work is a job and a job is paying the bills. I'm just saying when you're in this business, you have goals not just to book work, but to book work that could potentially be career changing ... a promotion in a sense. But in HIS time.
What I've realized is that his journey is not about the jobs I've booked or will booked. It's not about the money I've made or will make or about the bills I'll be able to pay or the material things I'll be able to buy. It's about becoming the person GOD wants me to be. It's about building character, helping others and creating relationships. It's about sharing GOD's spirit and love with others and making a difference.
I know I can get quite spiritual on you. But this journey has done quite a number on me. In a good way. So in this blog, I have to continuously remind myself how good HE has been to me so that no matter how many downs I experience I will always prevail. Everytime. But I also remind you so that you know the same for yourself.
I know life can get busy, but continue to thank HIM. If your in the car, on the toilet, washing dishes...there's not specific place you have to be in to chat it up with HIM. He hears you.
So on this bus riding up to NYC, I thank GOD for all HE has done and will continue to do in my life. HE truly is GOOD.
I get into NYC at about 845p but the way this driver is rolling we may make it in a little earlier. Then I hit the 2 train to Flatbush to lay it down and prepare for my shoot tomorrow. My call was moved from 1030am to 1230p so I can sleep in a little. However, on Thursday, my call time is at 6am. I say I'll be hitting the bed quite early tomorrow evening. *Yawn* Maybe I'll take a lil nappy pooh before I hit the pavement. Good Evening.
Until Next Time ... Go Get IT!!!!
I must say, the month of May has turned out to be quite busy. The promotional events have been in quantity and aside from the two jobs I turned down earlier in the month, I've booked 2 jobs shooting this week! They say it takes about 3 to 5 years to really start to see your business take off. Well if this any indication, I'm ready for the ride. I just hope I hit it before the 5 year mark ... but it's not my call. So let me just be quiet and be grateful.
GOD has truly been looking out as HE always does. Staying faithful, steadfast and consistent always brings about more than I ever expect. It can be overwhelming sometimes. Even surprising.
Yes, I am working but not necessarily booking the clients I would like. Trust me I'm not being picky. Work is a job and a job is paying the bills. I'm just saying when you're in this business, you have goals not just to book work, but to book work that could potentially be career changing ... a promotion in a sense. But in HIS time.
What I've realized is that his journey is not about the jobs I've booked or will booked. It's not about the money I've made or will make or about the bills I'll be able to pay or the material things I'll be able to buy. It's about becoming the person GOD wants me to be. It's about building character, helping others and creating relationships. It's about sharing GOD's spirit and love with others and making a difference.
I know I can get quite spiritual on you. But this journey has done quite a number on me. In a good way. So in this blog, I have to continuously remind myself how good HE has been to me so that no matter how many downs I experience I will always prevail. Everytime. But I also remind you so that you know the same for yourself.
I know life can get busy, but continue to thank HIM. If your in the car, on the toilet, washing dishes...there's not specific place you have to be in to chat it up with HIM. He hears you.
So on this bus riding up to NYC, I thank GOD for all HE has done and will continue to do in my life. HE truly is GOOD.
I get into NYC at about 845p but the way this driver is rolling we may make it in a little earlier. Then I hit the 2 train to Flatbush to lay it down and prepare for my shoot tomorrow. My call was moved from 1030am to 1230p so I can sleep in a little. However, on Thursday, my call time is at 6am. I say I'll be hitting the bed quite early tomorrow evening. *Yawn* Maybe I'll take a lil nappy pooh before I hit the pavement. Good Evening.
Until Next Time ... Go Get IT!!!!
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
Work it Out
I am TI-YERD yall! Today my legs got a work out. I got to bed pretty late last (Monday) night. I got in town about 7p and arrived in BK around 730p. This time around I'm staying with one of my girls. I was up talking to her and one of her friends that stopped by, who is also in town on his grind. He's a DJ. For those who don't know, DJ'ing is one of my "little" dreams. I love music and have gotten a few parties started. LOL. I have a name and everything yall ... its top secret so don't even ask. But maybe one day I'll be able to parlay my way into somebody's DJ booth and spin a couple records, or is it cd's or maybe just pick some songs from Itunes. LOL. Boy things have changed. But my possibilities are limitless right? wicky wicky wicky wicky (me scratching) LOL.
Anywho, I didn't get to bed til about 12am and woke up about 6am this morning to prepare to take a run in the Boerum Hills area of Brooklyn. We started with a power walk. Normally, I just run. But I decided to take part in my girlfriends workout regimen. Ok, power walking really is a workout! Running is easier to me. So I decided after we walked a few blocks to finish out with the run. I got back to the house, stretched, did a few crunches and proceeded to get ready for my day.
I had 3 auditions today. In addition to that, I had several errands I needed to run. Because I'm on a tight budget, and I like to get my exercise on, I walk pretty much everywhere once I get into the city. And boy did I walk it out. After I got off the train to my first casting which was on W18th, I walked to W29th to my second casting, then to W34th to Macy's to kill some time before meeting up with a friend for lunch. After lunch, I walked to W27th to my last casting, then to W36th to pick up a copy of a commercial I did, then to W53rd to return some sunglasses that broke after two weeks of buying them, (I think that just meant I shouldn't been buying them in the first place : / ) ... then back down to W16th to hang out with another friend before heading back to BK. Now keep in mind, I didn't include the avenues. I was between 5th and 8th avenues throughout my travels. The streets aren't bad, but those avenues can get you.
I wanted to just come in and take it down but I had to put in an entry. Trying to stay as consistent.
I'm so glad that you all are checking back in to see how things are going, what I'm venting, crying, or shouting about ... lol. I appreciate the love dahlin's! But what I don't appreciate is COMPLAINING, UNGRATEFUL, ATTITUDINAL, BRINGING ON THE DRAMA, DRAINING, ALWAYS KEEPING SOMETHING GOING PEOPLE!*
We all make decisions to do things. After making those decisions, we have to deal with whatever consequences comes from that decision ... good or bad. But yo' butt made the decision. How you gonna get mad at the decision you made. Were ya not sure in the first place? Disappointed O.K. But ummm, deal with it and move on with your life cause dag on it, its too short. It's already May, soon it'll be Christmas and you still talking and complaining about could've, would've, should've, he said, she said, my momma said ...
Now, I'm not saying I've never been any one of the adjectives above, but at some point in my life I had to give it up and turn it lose. I had to stop allowing people to suck me in, drain me and absorb all my energy, positivity, love, kindness ... anything good in me ... that includes FAMILY!
Don't allow what people have done to YOU spill over, i.e. enter other people's lives. If you can't control how you feel because someone pissed you off, something didn't go your way, people aren't acting how YOU think they should be acting OR whatever the case may be, please deal with it or stay the heck away from those who are trying to progress in a positive flow.
I had to take a long hard look at my life. How I was being affected by other's actions and how my action's affected other's. Sometimes you lose sight of yourself and sometimes you lose friends. Losing friends is a part of life, but losing yourself can be tragic. So I decided to work on ME and gained some new friends in the process. I can't change how other people act, but I can certainly change how I act. I made a decision to be better and to do better. It's a process but I'm willing to go through it to be a better me. And hopefully, be an example to other's. Sidebar: OOOOH People will try you though!
Until then, GO GET YOU SOME G.O.D. and work on being better!
*I'm not saying we shouldn't or can't vent. That happens. It's normal. But be more aware of how often you let things bother you and how it affects the people around you.
Anywho, I didn't get to bed til about 12am and woke up about 6am this morning to prepare to take a run in the Boerum Hills area of Brooklyn. We started with a power walk. Normally, I just run. But I decided to take part in my girlfriends workout regimen. Ok, power walking really is a workout! Running is easier to me. So I decided after we walked a few blocks to finish out with the run. I got back to the house, stretched, did a few crunches and proceeded to get ready for my day.
I had 3 auditions today. In addition to that, I had several errands I needed to run. Because I'm on a tight budget, and I like to get my exercise on, I walk pretty much everywhere once I get into the city. And boy did I walk it out. After I got off the train to my first casting which was on W18th, I walked to W29th to my second casting, then to W34th to Macy's to kill some time before meeting up with a friend for lunch. After lunch, I walked to W27th to my last casting, then to W36th to pick up a copy of a commercial I did, then to W53rd to return some sunglasses that broke after two weeks of buying them, (I think that just meant I shouldn't been buying them in the first place : / ) ... then back down to W16th to hang out with another friend before heading back to BK. Now keep in mind, I didn't include the avenues. I was between 5th and 8th avenues throughout my travels. The streets aren't bad, but those avenues can get you.
I wanted to just come in and take it down but I had to put in an entry. Trying to stay as consistent.
I'm so glad that you all are checking back in to see how things are going, what I'm venting, crying, or shouting about ... lol. I appreciate the love dahlin's! But what I don't appreciate is COMPLAINING, UNGRATEFUL, ATTITUDINAL, BRINGING ON THE DRAMA, DRAINING, ALWAYS KEEPING SOMETHING GOING PEOPLE!*
We all make decisions to do things. After making those decisions, we have to deal with whatever consequences comes from that decision ... good or bad. But yo' butt made the decision. How you gonna get mad at the decision you made. Were ya not sure in the first place? Disappointed O.K. But ummm, deal with it and move on with your life cause dag on it, its too short. It's already May, soon it'll be Christmas and you still talking and complaining about could've, would've, should've, he said, she said, my momma said ...
Now, I'm not saying I've never been any one of the adjectives above, but at some point in my life I had to give it up and turn it lose. I had to stop allowing people to suck me in, drain me and absorb all my energy, positivity, love, kindness ... anything good in me ... that includes FAMILY!
Don't allow what people have done to YOU spill over, i.e. enter other people's lives. If you can't control how you feel because someone pissed you off, something didn't go your way, people aren't acting how YOU think they should be acting OR whatever the case may be, please deal with it or stay the heck away from those who are trying to progress in a positive flow.
I had to take a long hard look at my life. How I was being affected by other's actions and how my action's affected other's. Sometimes you lose sight of yourself and sometimes you lose friends. Losing friends is a part of life, but losing yourself can be tragic. So I decided to work on ME and gained some new friends in the process. I can't change how other people act, but I can certainly change how I act. I made a decision to be better and to do better. It's a process but I'm willing to go through it to be a better me. And hopefully, be an example to other's. Sidebar: OOOOH People will try you though!
Until then, GO GET YOU SOME G.O.D. and work on being better!
*I'm not saying we shouldn't or can't vent. That happens. It's normal. But be more aware of how often you let things bother you and how it affects the people around you.
Saturday, May 8, 2010
Taking Care
It's been about a week or so since my last insert. Sorry guys. I've been playing catch up with myself.
One morning the week before last, my spirit was a little low. It happens. In trying to pack all my stuff to head back home, thinking about the trek I was gonna have to make with it all, my spirit drew weary and my mind re-acted. In addition to a headache I'd been having for about 3 days and a friend's complaining about nothing, I lost it. Not completely. I needed to shed...some tears that is, and take a deep breath.
I really want to get a space in NY or stop packing so dag on much. I try to have options so I don't have to buy anything. Money is tight and as much as I love to shop, its just not in the budget to do so. But a space to be able to leave stuff and not worry about cluttering up someone else's place and the ultimate, the hassle of asking 'can I stay with you this week' would be ideal. I'm still working on how I can achieve this and not lose my mind in the process.
Granted, last month was GREAT! Work was consistent. So why was I so down? Well I am human. Life is not just about the good things that happen to me but its also about the challenges I endure and how I can work through them and maintain a joyful, healthy mind and spirit.
Work can come sporadically but I still have to have some down time. I actually booked 2 smaller paying jobs this month, but had to turn them down because I had to re-group. Sometimes you just have to take a break. You can't do everything. I have to take care of myself so that I can have longevity in this industry. Then, some jobs just don't make sense. If they are a lower paying job and you have to drive a distance to get there (gas, maybe tolls), minus the commission the agency takes, it's not worth a couple hundred dollars to miss out on some rest and time with family. Trust me I thought both jobs through, but I just had to take one, well 2, for Team Mo!
If I had a place in NY, it might be different. I don't, so I have to work with what I got and take care of me in the process.
I'm just so thankful that I have family and friends that are extremely supportive. But most importantly, I am grateful for the loving GOD that continues to take care of me. And I have to continue to be mindful that HE is in control of EVERY aspect of my life. I have to live by FAITH, not by sight. Just because things aren't happening the way I would like to, doesn't mean they won't ever happen. I am on G. O. D. time. So I've got to learn to get over what's not happening and keep it moving.
May has begun and I've gone on a few castings thus far. A few I would love to book! Although I turned down 2 jobs this month, I'm confident that I will book more. As I always say, "whats for me, is for me!" Let me just add, I don't think any job is beneath me, its just that my well-being is more important than the money. I can't make the money if I'm not well ... mind, body and spirit.
So in the process of "GETTING IT", remember to take care of YOU!!!
One morning the week before last, my spirit was a little low. It happens. In trying to pack all my stuff to head back home, thinking about the trek I was gonna have to make with it all, my spirit drew weary and my mind re-acted. In addition to a headache I'd been having for about 3 days and a friend's complaining about nothing, I lost it. Not completely. I needed to shed...some tears that is, and take a deep breath.
I really want to get a space in NY or stop packing so dag on much. I try to have options so I don't have to buy anything. Money is tight and as much as I love to shop, its just not in the budget to do so. But a space to be able to leave stuff and not worry about cluttering up someone else's place and the ultimate, the hassle of asking 'can I stay with you this week' would be ideal. I'm still working on how I can achieve this and not lose my mind in the process.
Granted, last month was GREAT! Work was consistent. So why was I so down? Well I am human. Life is not just about the good things that happen to me but its also about the challenges I endure and how I can work through them and maintain a joyful, healthy mind and spirit.
Work can come sporadically but I still have to have some down time. I actually booked 2 smaller paying jobs this month, but had to turn them down because I had to re-group. Sometimes you just have to take a break. You can't do everything. I have to take care of myself so that I can have longevity in this industry. Then, some jobs just don't make sense. If they are a lower paying job and you have to drive a distance to get there (gas, maybe tolls), minus the commission the agency takes, it's not worth a couple hundred dollars to miss out on some rest and time with family. Trust me I thought both jobs through, but I just had to take one, well 2, for Team Mo!
If I had a place in NY, it might be different. I don't, so I have to work with what I got and take care of me in the process.
I'm just so thankful that I have family and friends that are extremely supportive. But most importantly, I am grateful for the loving GOD that continues to take care of me. And I have to continue to be mindful that HE is in control of EVERY aspect of my life. I have to live by FAITH, not by sight. Just because things aren't happening the way I would like to, doesn't mean they won't ever happen. I am on G. O. D. time. So I've got to learn to get over what's not happening and keep it moving.
May has begun and I've gone on a few castings thus far. A few I would love to book! Although I turned down 2 jobs this month, I'm confident that I will book more. As I always say, "whats for me, is for me!" Let me just add, I don't think any job is beneath me, its just that my well-being is more important than the money. I can't make the money if I'm not well ... mind, body and spirit.
So in the process of "GETTING IT", remember to take care of YOU!!!
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