Repeat This:
I WILL NOT LET THE PAST ERODE MY PEACE.
Looking back is like looking into a rear view mirror. Things look larger than they appear. When you continue to dwell on the things of the past, those situations can grow and spill over into new relationships and experiences. They become negatively bigger than their intended purpose instead of lessons or stepping stones that should guide us toward the spiritual growth and maturity GOD planned for.
FOCUS and BE GRATEFUL for TODAY. Take in the sun. The sky. The roof over your head. The positive people in your life. Accomplish TODAY goals. Be thankful for the car you're driving even if it isn't the car you want. It still gets you from point A to point B. Be thankful for your momma that gets on your everlasting nerves, but GOD woke you both up this morning so that you can work on getting the relationship right. Be thankful for the food in your fridge and your neighbor that always looks out. Be thankful for your job even if its swinging burger and fries. All that you have... NOW. Be thankful and Enjoy it. Yesterday is gone, over, finito and well tomorrow ... is not promised.
Stop complaining, dwelling and being unhappy about things that are over, in the past or you have or had no control over.
Until TODAY is Over ... Focus on each NEW DAY that GOD gives you and BE GLAD IN IT.
Sunday, July 17, 2011
Sunday, July 10, 2011
Sow You're Thoughts On Tight
Its been a while folks but it hasn't been because I've forgotten about the blog. Usually, I blog when something inspires me to. I really want the content of my blog to be helpful to not only myself, but others. Sometimes you have to watch what and how you say things as you don't want to send the wrong message. This blog is bigger than a place for me to vent my frustrations but also a way for me to fellowship with any one. Most of us have the same or similar issues, but in all, we all have things going on in our lives than can cause an abundance of happiness or pain.
As most of you who have subscribed or follow, you know that its very spiritual. I can't deny the fact that GOD is present in my Life and it is because of HIM that I have been able to sustain in every aspect of my life without losing control or taking it to the streets. LOL.
As I have started to stretch my career into other interests i.e. Hosting, it has seemed to be a bit of a challenge. But hey, I'm used to challenges, and I'm certainly used to jumping over, stepping on and kicking them to infinity and beyond. But they never stop and well, I never stop pushing through.
I've been on a few interviews that I've got on my own through some people I know who are affiliated with some entertainment organizations or through craigslist. Nothing has come through yet, but still I rise. Yesterday, really through me for a loop. I expressed interest to a company who seemed on the up and up through craigslist. The first weekend that they wanted to schedule an interview, I was due out of town, the next weekend we had to rescheduled because of the holiday weekend and this weekend was a question mark until 11:32 pm the night before.
I reached out to the young lady I'd been communicating with for the last few weeks on Friday morning to confirm the appointment for this weekend and never got a response. Then I followed up around 5p and still no response. So I decided to take care of some last minute business that came up which was gonna keep me up pretty late, since I hadn't heard from her. I figured it was a no go. But then I get the confirm. So cool. I'm a little blown because of how late I get the email but excited nonetheless because its seems like a cool company to get some more experience under my belt.
I get to bed around 2am knowing that I have to get up pretty early to make it to this appointment on time. Although my commute is only a 10-15 minute commute to the city, I have to schedule my departure in accordance with the bus schedule. So I get up bright and early, get myself together, eat a light breakfast and get into the city a little before 10 am. I wind up making a few stops in stores to kill some time and then head over to the appointment by 10:15p.
I get to the building and try the revolving door...LOCKED. The set of the regular doors to the right. LOCKED. I even rang the night time bell and no one showed up. But I could have sworn I tried all the doors but apparently, I didn't because after waiting til about 10:40am a young lady tries the revolving doors...still locked and then the regular doors to the left and walks right in. OK I am dumbfounded at this point. But I'm thinking maybe they just unlocked them or something. I was sitting right in front of the building the whole time. No person came to unlock the door so maybe its something they do electronically. I don't know. Moving on.
I walk in and low and behold there is a guard sitting at the desk. I didn't even know there was a desk right there. Because of where the desk is located you cannot see it from the doorway. So when I see this girl sitting at the desk I am BLOWN. So as you can see this morning is not going smoothly for me. I'm like "you were sitting here this entire time? Did you not hear the bell I was ringing?" ring-a-ling-a-ling...ring-a-ling-ling! What in the world. Did you not see my shadow or me trying the doors? Were ya sleep? I just sign in and head to the (holding up 4 ringers) 5th floor.
The young lady that walked in ahead of me didn't sign in but I figured she was also being interviewed. When I got to the floor, she was there. I spoke and I got a half-ass hi. But that's cool. I'm here to take care of business. So we are both standing in front of the glass doors that lead to the company's office. However, they are locked and it is pitched dark in there. I'm still thinking she's here for the interview as well. Mind you, I have tried to email and call the young lady who set this appointment up in the first place. No response. My *blowupuation is increasing...
So finally a man comes out to open the doors for us. He turns on the lights, the young lady proceeds to one of the offices, and I have a seat in the waiting area. I ask him a few questions, because at this point, I don't know if he works for the company or what. He knows nothing but has informed me that he works in one of the offices. Apparently, there are different offices/companies in this office. The way its set up I would have never thought this was not one company. But nonetheless, that helped me a little, and I decided to proceed to find the office I need and the young lady is sitting in there.
Its a super small office for a company but hey some people work from home or a coffee shop. As long you're handling your business right? So I walk in, about to take a seat and the young lady says, "do you work here?" I'm like "no." I ask if she is here for the interview, and with alot of attitude she's like "no I work here, I'm one of the writers." Huh? So you asking me if I work here? What? I proceed to tell her I'm there for an interview with such and such ... who obviously is not there.
She gets up and says, "can you sit out there" pointing out to the lobby. Damn near shoving me out the door with her body. But of course I can but where is the chick that is suppose to be interviewing me at 1030 am. This is the office, you work here and I'm about 20 seconds off the blowuputation. I'm like "she does work here right?" She confirms and I take it back to the waiting area. First thing I'm thinking, craigslist? really? But I know some friends that have gotten some cool gigs off there so in my pursuit to push my career along, I'm looking into all things.
After about 5 more minutes, she comes out to inform me that 1/ she was not aware of the interview, 2/the young lady who set up the interview is really sick and will not be coming, A SAY WHAT? and get this 3/She states that she is the PR Director. But didn't you just say you were one of the writers. Are you both? Which one is it? Where am I? Is this a dream? So although a sigh of disgust presents itself, I hold it together and let her finish. So now, Ms. "Attitude", Ms. "Blown Cause She Ain't Know About My Interview and Has to Conduct It Herself", is going to see if the conference room is available so that we can proceed with wasting my damn time.
Finally, the interview has started and right off the bat this girl is coming at me with attitude. Like she is mad that I had the nerve to walk up in here for this interview that was scheduled by her colleague. And me no likey. I wanna just bust out and say "Who are you talking to like that?" So my spirit is shook and needless to say, this interview is not going well. She is talking to me like I'm not serious about where I want to take this position if I get it, I'm too conservative, they need someone with personality, and blah blah blah. Did I mention this is not a paid position? But I'm OK with that ... right now. At this moment, I really should have called on the Lord. But I allowed her to take me to a place that basically warped any personality, talent or excitement I had in me. Not to mention, I didn't have a alot of sleep the night before and just the entire process of it all, wore me out!
Like it is Saturday, I live in Jersey and I need to take care of some really important matters in my life right now and God presented this opportunity, woke me up this morning, guided me safely in the city to make this interview and you talking to me like I just wanna do this for fun! Like I'm some random broad off the street. Did I mention I got bills ... hole up hole up... a degree in BROADCAST JOURNALISM, been in national commercials, on national advertisements, billboards, publications ... been busting my butt to make it happen and again its Saturday and I got up at 7am to deal with incompentancy, disrepect and disregard for my time and effort!!!! Man get outta hea!
She took me in yall. She transferred her negative energy and it knocked the wind out of me. Blowupuation at its finest but I held it in, smiled, thanked her for her time and went on my merry way. Then she had the nerve to say she liked my hair. SMH.
I couldn't help to think though that my attitude earlier was the start of this downward spiral though. On my way to the interview, a homeless woman asked me could I spare some change. I didn't have any to spare, but I didn't tell her in the nicest way. I do live in a city where the begging is overwhelming and where a lot of trickery and con goes on, but I didn't have to damn near roll my eyes in disgust when I told her I didn't have it.
I asked GOD to forgive me on my walk along the way but sometimes there is a lesson to be learned in everything you think, say and do. I'm sure the young lady that interviewed me had some karma in her day or maybe even today. Maybe she even thought about her actions and asked GOD to forgive her. But rest assured it always come right back around. We gotta learn the lesson even if we've realized soon after that we were wrong or what we did was so unnecessary.
You know, regardless of how people got in their situations, good or bad, its not up to us to judge. But it is up to us to be kind regardless of what we may have going on in our own lives. Give people the benefit of the doubt. But also be a blessing to others.
Until Next time ... Think before you Do. Make decisions that line up with the will of God. If not you will reap more mess, stress and drama.
*Blown- Done. To Through. Gone with the wind.
*Blowupuation - What happens when you're blown excessively.
*Blower-Person who causes this reaction.
As most of you who have subscribed or follow, you know that its very spiritual. I can't deny the fact that GOD is present in my Life and it is because of HIM that I have been able to sustain in every aspect of my life without losing control or taking it to the streets. LOL.
As I have started to stretch my career into other interests i.e. Hosting, it has seemed to be a bit of a challenge. But hey, I'm used to challenges, and I'm certainly used to jumping over, stepping on and kicking them to infinity and beyond. But they never stop and well, I never stop pushing through.
I've been on a few interviews that I've got on my own through some people I know who are affiliated with some entertainment organizations or through craigslist. Nothing has come through yet, but still I rise. Yesterday, really through me for a loop. I expressed interest to a company who seemed on the up and up through craigslist. The first weekend that they wanted to schedule an interview, I was due out of town, the next weekend we had to rescheduled because of the holiday weekend and this weekend was a question mark until 11:32 pm the night before.
I reached out to the young lady I'd been communicating with for the last few weeks on Friday morning to confirm the appointment for this weekend and never got a response. Then I followed up around 5p and still no response. So I decided to take care of some last minute business that came up which was gonna keep me up pretty late, since I hadn't heard from her. I figured it was a no go. But then I get the confirm. So cool. I'm a little blown because of how late I get the email but excited nonetheless because its seems like a cool company to get some more experience under my belt.
I get to bed around 2am knowing that I have to get up pretty early to make it to this appointment on time. Although my commute is only a 10-15 minute commute to the city, I have to schedule my departure in accordance with the bus schedule. So I get up bright and early, get myself together, eat a light breakfast and get into the city a little before 10 am. I wind up making a few stops in stores to kill some time and then head over to the appointment by 10:15p.
I get to the building and try the revolving door...LOCKED. The set of the regular doors to the right. LOCKED. I even rang the night time bell and no one showed up. But I could have sworn I tried all the doors but apparently, I didn't because after waiting til about 10:40am a young lady tries the revolving doors...still locked and then the regular doors to the left and walks right in. OK I am dumbfounded at this point. But I'm thinking maybe they just unlocked them or something. I was sitting right in front of the building the whole time. No person came to unlock the door so maybe its something they do electronically. I don't know. Moving on.
I walk in and low and behold there is a guard sitting at the desk. I didn't even know there was a desk right there. Because of where the desk is located you cannot see it from the doorway. So when I see this girl sitting at the desk I am BLOWN. So as you can see this morning is not going smoothly for me. I'm like "you were sitting here this entire time? Did you not hear the bell I was ringing?" ring-a-ling-a-ling...ring-a-ling-ling! What in the world. Did you not see my shadow or me trying the doors? Were ya sleep? I just sign in and head to the (holding up 4 ringers) 5th floor.
The young lady that walked in ahead of me didn't sign in but I figured she was also being interviewed. When I got to the floor, she was there. I spoke and I got a half-ass hi. But that's cool. I'm here to take care of business. So we are both standing in front of the glass doors that lead to the company's office. However, they are locked and it is pitched dark in there. I'm still thinking she's here for the interview as well. Mind you, I have tried to email and call the young lady who set this appointment up in the first place. No response. My *blowupuation is increasing...
So finally a man comes out to open the doors for us. He turns on the lights, the young lady proceeds to one of the offices, and I have a seat in the waiting area. I ask him a few questions, because at this point, I don't know if he works for the company or what. He knows nothing but has informed me that he works in one of the offices. Apparently, there are different offices/companies in this office. The way its set up I would have never thought this was not one company. But nonetheless, that helped me a little, and I decided to proceed to find the office I need and the young lady is sitting in there.
Its a super small office for a company but hey some people work from home or a coffee shop. As long you're handling your business right? So I walk in, about to take a seat and the young lady says, "do you work here?" I'm like "no." I ask if she is here for the interview, and with alot of attitude she's like "no I work here, I'm one of the writers." Huh? So you asking me if I work here? What? I proceed to tell her I'm there for an interview with such and such ... who obviously is not there.
She gets up and says, "can you sit out there" pointing out to the lobby. Damn near shoving me out the door with her body. But of course I can but where is the chick that is suppose to be interviewing me at 1030 am. This is the office, you work here and I'm about 20 seconds off the blowuputation. I'm like "she does work here right?" She confirms and I take it back to the waiting area. First thing I'm thinking, craigslist? really? But I know some friends that have gotten some cool gigs off there so in my pursuit to push my career along, I'm looking into all things.
After about 5 more minutes, she comes out to inform me that 1/ she was not aware of the interview, 2/the young lady who set up the interview is really sick and will not be coming, A SAY WHAT? and get this 3/She states that she is the PR Director. But didn't you just say you were one of the writers. Are you both? Which one is it? Where am I? Is this a dream? So although a sigh of disgust presents itself, I hold it together and let her finish. So now, Ms. "Attitude", Ms. "Blown Cause She Ain't Know About My Interview and Has to Conduct It Herself", is going to see if the conference room is available so that we can proceed with wasting my damn time.
Finally, the interview has started and right off the bat this girl is coming at me with attitude. Like she is mad that I had the nerve to walk up in here for this interview that was scheduled by her colleague. And me no likey. I wanna just bust out and say "Who are you talking to like that?" So my spirit is shook and needless to say, this interview is not going well. She is talking to me like I'm not serious about where I want to take this position if I get it, I'm too conservative, they need someone with personality, and blah blah blah. Did I mention this is not a paid position? But I'm OK with that ... right now. At this moment, I really should have called on the Lord. But I allowed her to take me to a place that basically warped any personality, talent or excitement I had in me. Not to mention, I didn't have a alot of sleep the night before and just the entire process of it all, wore me out!
Like it is Saturday, I live in Jersey and I need to take care of some really important matters in my life right now and God presented this opportunity, woke me up this morning, guided me safely in the city to make this interview and you talking to me like I just wanna do this for fun! Like I'm some random broad off the street. Did I mention I got bills ... hole up hole up... a degree in BROADCAST JOURNALISM, been in national commercials, on national advertisements, billboards, publications ... been busting my butt to make it happen and again its Saturday and I got up at 7am to deal with incompentancy, disrepect and disregard for my time and effort!!!! Man get outta hea!
She took me in yall. She transferred her negative energy and it knocked the wind out of me. Blowupuation at its finest but I held it in, smiled, thanked her for her time and went on my merry way. Then she had the nerve to say she liked my hair. SMH.
I couldn't help to think though that my attitude earlier was the start of this downward spiral though. On my way to the interview, a homeless woman asked me could I spare some change. I didn't have any to spare, but I didn't tell her in the nicest way. I do live in a city where the begging is overwhelming and where a lot of trickery and con goes on, but I didn't have to damn near roll my eyes in disgust when I told her I didn't have it.
I asked GOD to forgive me on my walk along the way but sometimes there is a lesson to be learned in everything you think, say and do. I'm sure the young lady that interviewed me had some karma in her day or maybe even today. Maybe she even thought about her actions and asked GOD to forgive her. But rest assured it always come right back around. We gotta learn the lesson even if we've realized soon after that we were wrong or what we did was so unnecessary.
You know, regardless of how people got in their situations, good or bad, its not up to us to judge. But it is up to us to be kind regardless of what we may have going on in our own lives. Give people the benefit of the doubt. But also be a blessing to others.
Until Next time ... Think before you Do. Make decisions that line up with the will of God. If not you will reap more mess, stress and drama.
*Blown- Done. To Through. Gone with the wind.
*Blowupuation - What happens when you're blown excessively.
*Blower-Person who causes this reaction.
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